Today, I had mixed feelings after the team-building event. At first, I felt a bit awkward trying to find someone to talk to. It felt like I had to act like an actress, and that’s not something I’m good at. Socializing isn’t easy, but when you try, it’s not as hard as it seems—I guess it all depends on your mindset.
The moment I finally let go of the awkwardness was when I became genuinely interested in something. I saw them playing table football—wow, how thrilling it was! Then I decided to give it a try. When my colleagues invited me, I didn’t hesitate at all—I just wanted to play. Looking back, I realize that maybe the key difference was awareness.
If I had been too aware of my colleagues’ kindness, I probably would have felt awkward again, overthinking how to express my gratitude. It sounds silly, but that’s just how I grew up. However, in that moment, I forgot about all that—I was simply eager to play, haha. And it was just as fun as it looked! Even though I was terrible at it and accidentally kicked the ball into my own goal several times, I still had a great time.
One of my colleagues from LUX, might have seen how badly I was playing, so he decided to join in and help me defend our goal. With his guidance, I think I finally got the hang of it. He really acted like a gentleman—just like everyone said.